No Longer Afraid

Why do we love so hard, only to allow tragedy to pull us apart? Why do we keep ourselves so busy, that we miss or ignore what’s important? Is it so we don’t have to be honest, face the truth… Most likely. I’ve allowed fear of disappointment, in certain situations, to control my true feelings; because the times I have spoken them, well – it didn’t turn out so well.

We’ve all got a past and at one time or another felt the sting of pain; at least I have. My greatest joy, (giving, helping and loving others), has always been my greatest heartbreak. Truth is, we travel a path that will carry us as far away from the hurt as possible, only to have it catch up to us. And when it does, man does it strike with a vengeance.

September the 9th of 2009, had more in store for me than I could have ever prepared for. Although, I must admit, this was no different than any other time in my life; only this time would prove to be tough and a blessing. The tragedy of that faithful day led to my life changing forever and turned my world upside down.

As I’m sure most of you, who’ve ever been through a tough time know, you begin losing people in your life that you thought would always be there. Some hurt more than others and then there’s those who leave a scar. And sometimes, you find yourself alone, when it comes to dealing with the hand you’ve been dealt.

Then you find strength to carry on and follow your heart. For me, that’s where the blessing comes in; K*Chele Designs / Magazine. It’s fully responsible for… forging life-long friendships, opening doors I never thought possible, allowing me to submerge myself in my passion and making it a little easier to deal with my new reality.

However, with growth comes failure. When you grow in one area of your life, another fails. Funny, I always thought it didn’t have to be that way, but turns out, I was wrong. People change and no matter how hard you may try, there are times that you just can’t get back what you’ve lost; and that… Is painful?

Once you accept what’s happening and realize you’ve done all you can do, then you’re no longer afraid of the outcome. And that, is freedom. I may have been dealt a shitty hand, but I’m a strong woman who’s determined to fight and stand up for myself, even if I’ve got to stand alone. That doesn’t mean it hurts any less or that I’m immune to bad days, it means I know I’ll get through them and everything is gonna be alright.

Signed: Kimberly Michele Durham

2 thoughts on “No Longer Afraid

  1. Trish says:

    Kimberly… WOW…First of all, thanks for the article…In so many ways, we’ve all been
    down that road…Love, lost, hurt, pain and yes most of all, facing that word *disappointment*
    and the fear that goes along with that. Trying to move away from those feelings and yet they tend to
    Just creep in from time to time. Why is that? When Things go right and we find ourselves with that feeling of joy, we celebrate and can’t get enough of it. But once that tides turns,and that certain thing we tried to avoid, called pain, just came rushing back in like a Tsunami, covering me and dragging out to sea once again. So now it’s picking up the pieces and once again moving forward. They say that when one door closes another door opens, but we as humans start to see the door close and rush over to put our hands in the crack to try to keep it open for we don’t want to stray away from our comfort zone or what our dream might have been, but until we let the door close, the other door won’t open. I find myself facing this situation now in my life and the feeling of that fear creeping in once again..They say this too shall pass and it will. It’s great to know that I’m not alone, and out of all of this I’m going through right now will only bring me back into balance with the universe. It’s just another growing Pain I need to experience. Thanks for listening.


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