Why do we love so hard, only to allow tragedy to pull us apart? Why do we keep ourselves so busy, that we miss or ignore what’s important? Is it so we don’t have to be honest, face the truth… Most likely. I’ve allowed fear of disappointment, in certain situations, to control my true feelings; because the times I have spoken them, well – it didn’t turn out so well.
We’ve all got a past and at one time or another felt the sting of pain; at least I have. My greatest joy, (giving, helping and loving others), has always been my greatest heartbreak. Truth is, we travel a path that will carry us as far away from the hurt as possible, only to have it catch up to us. And when it does, man does it strike with a vengeance.
September the 9th of 2009, had more in store for me than I could have ever prepared for. Although, I must admit, this was no different than any other time in my life; only this time would prove to be tough and a blessing. The tragedy of that faithful day led to my life changing forever and turned my world upside down.
As I’m sure most of you, who’ve ever been through a tough time know, you begin losing people in your life that you thought would always be there. Some hurt more than others and then there’s those who leave a scar. And sometimes, you find yourself alone, when it comes to dealing with the hand you’ve been dealt.
Then you find strength to carry on and follow your heart. For me, that’s where the blessing comes in; K*Chele Designs / Magazine. It’s fully responsible for… forging life-long friendships, opening doors I never thought possible, allowing me to submerge myself in my passion and making it a little easier to deal with my new reality.
However, with growth comes failure. When you grow in one area of your life, another fails. Funny, I always thought it didn’t have to be that way, but turns out, I was wrong. People change and no matter how hard you may try, there are times that you just can’t get back what you’ve lost; and that… Is painful?
Once you accept what’s happening and realize you’ve done all you can do, then you’re no longer afraid of the outcome. And that, is freedom. I may have been dealt a shitty hand, but I’m a strong woman who’s determined to fight and stand up for myself, even if I’ve got to stand alone. That doesn’t mean it hurts any less or that I’m immune to bad days, it means I know I’ll get through them and everything is gonna be alright.
Signed: Kimberly Michele Durham